failed attempt

oh well i have been trying to diet so ergh
i failed as usual
i was so hungry i couldnt take it
hehe

i was reading on this article about this couple who went through anorexia
i mean i was bulimic once for a short while but that was it a long long time ago

well basically this couple where the wife was sort of a perfectionist
wanted to be thin so she started by cutting down all her food
and from there she started starving
and by then she had anorexia

the husband decided to starve to know what she was going through
and what he said after that was damn true
once you've starved yourself for 3 days its like a victory and u motivte yourself
and it feels good
but once you fall thats it
its hard to get back on that horse again

i mean i dont want to be anorexic but just be able to wear my old clothes again
its so horrible how i am now

ergh