Neglect

dont know why but recently just feeling a little neglected

or maybe isolated which i did myself.

i mean i know that my life earlier was way more different as compared to now

and that i life the close knit friendships and that someone to rely on

but now its just different and i keep judging everyone

maybe thats why i seemed to have isolated myself

and everyone always says quality over quantity right?

maybe there might be someone who is there

but i dont know??

i need to change, no i need a change atleast.

maybe things might be a little better. -hopefully-

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i went to pulau ubin with amor the other day

and he isnt so much into it as i was

but it was pretty fun so far. we had seafood hahaha yummy!!!

ohh but we cycled in the rain and it was bloody cold i tell you

and that had to be that day i was too free with the mascara

hahahahaha

i guess we smoothened some rough edges somehow

and im trying to be more understanding and acceptable atleast

i really wanted to go to the wetlands but it was raining and the path didnt

seem good enough for us to trek in

so we headed back to the main area and sadly the shop where i wanted

to eat seafood at was closed so we went to the next one which didnt seem like a

seafood place but the food was good. hahahaha i love seafood

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then the strangest things happened after we got back to mainland...

i remember cheekily buying alcohol when amor passed his wallet to me

hahahahahaah and he was shocked coz he probably thought

i would buy like coke or something

and i remember drinking bourbon and the tag on the grass

and then after that i just see alot of grass..

i dont remember much but amor said we went to OCH which

i seriously cant remember much

and amor thought i was capital "P"

hahahaha he was so cute he said he was praying for me

anyways i spoke to tre about this and tre says not to remember it since i dont

maybe im not supposed to but it feels extremely weird to not remember

i wonder how those with amnesia feels

to be told thats your life

and you have no recollection of it at all...

really bloody weird. like you can see this thing infront of you

but you just cant seem to understand or know it.