a month now and many more to come

well hols have been on for 3 weeks and coming to an end this sunday
have to get new clothes soon
and definetely more earrings
i found myself addicted to coffee again quite recently
and its disturbing
i mean i used to drink coffee like water and had to have it every little while
it took me a while to stop
and i was proud of myself
but now its started again and its reali bad
i mean ergh as it is i am dealing with my stupid weight issues
and this is so not helping...
baby is sick like really bad
and i feel bad that i cant be there for him
i wish i could and its making it so much harder to wait
i told shal alot about McXotic today
and all the reali sweet things he says
and i realized how wonderful you are
and how much i've fallen for you
not that i've not realized this before but its much deeper now
and well honey its 1 month now...
and i have no idea how you are or where you are
i just hope everything is fine and that you are better..

its still 23 months more...
just lesser days...
i'm missing you so much!