walk out the door...

hmmmm welll
u noe everything was going fine...
things were so nice but hey u gave it up...
anyways i am not gonna run behind you and expect u to feel the same way
i mean i like what we had but if you cant be bothered then fine...
u dun have to tell me
your silence is enough... i mean come on
you wanna be a lover and whatever thats up to you...
i actually know you're not who i thought you were... so honestly
just walk out that door...
u proved me right... u werent different at all...
anyways haha its freezing i cant type anymore...

it gets so hard to walk away..

this game of tug and war never ends does it....
anyways u noe i reali like you and all but i feel like you dun seem to care
would you care if i walked away?
would you feel it if we werent spending time together?
i dont know...
i think this is why i like it ask so many questions...
so tha i wil know things...
but this is killing me by not knowing...
i tried to walk away but its so hard because i keep remembering the things that makes me hold on...

tugofwar

hey... wow that day was just so fun.. haha..
you know i dun wanna keep playing this game of tug and war..
seriously....
i mean one minute we are both pulling at the same time and everything is perfect and next you are suddenly letting go... and i am still pulling
but when i am about to let go you suddenly pull again...
i mean please just dun do that... its not fun because i've never felt this way b4 and i reali want
things to be wonderful...
i noe its difficult but hey just dun let go k...
you've had all the chances to walk away but you didnt so dun do that now bcoz its too hard...

ohmygosh

i reali cant forget
and its killing me..
bring back those times when we were so close....
and laughed and laughed
bring it back ...

rough...

oh how can one day be so wonderful and then turn out so horrible...
i brought this upon myself anyways..
i knew it was wrong
i knew i shouldnt have
even shal told me
but i was just so stubborn...
i mean it is so nice spending time with him and all that
but why come so close and in the end tell me to just be good friends..
gosh it has to be retribution
but damn it i have never gotten so excited like this and even pridee was shocked
but what else was i supposed to do?
do u eriously think i can forget it?
argh

bleah...

hmmmm havent updated for a while... haha
k lets see i reali cant seem to say anything coz
there is too much which cant be said...
but i want to say it...
haha ok nonsense...
well oh RP icg took home the challenge trophy... thats great.. haha
mr monkey bean said lots of things and i duno why but
its so nice but at the same time i know its so freaking wrong...
but it doesnt feel wrong...
ah ya....