are you my friend?

my last two posts seemed quite depressing. well i am glad its over,
baby and i are great now...
the rainbow in coming
and the lady bugs have been good.
i love you!!!!

as for dance i have come to peace with myself
and i am not gonna be affected by it
i noe i did alot
but she just doesnt see
so whatever
i cannot be bothered.
i have to accept that its not the same
not the same as mrs V
she was great and that was why i liked dance
because of her,
anyways enough of this

my knee kinda hurts
and i am worred its screwed up bad
i cant bend it for long
but i can walk so it'll probably go off soon...

hmmmm i was just thinking the other day...
friends are easy to come by but those who would reali stick with you
are hard to even be found.
i mean in sac things were super diff
i dont know maybe coz we were reali close and all
but no matter how bitchy they can be they still call or check on you
when they noe something isnt right
but here its so diff
its like all you can do is talk
but when it comes to doing nothing happens.

i mean i noe i am not that fantastic as a friend because i noe
that i will go all out but would they do the same for me
so i hesitate coz well i dont think they would
and when she took me out of that role
i actually proved myself right
they wont go all out
or to even know
no one was shocked or sad for me
i mean that was so horrible coz i was the only one freaking out
thanks shaheeda for atleast going with me to ask her
and confirm
and thanks sunitha for atleast saying bye when i went off without saying anything.

maybe i am just a person who sees the smallest things
but to me what you do and say is what makes you
but the next day i came to school and ok so i looked all down and out
so everyone asked whats wrong
and yes thanks rani i know you care and its reali nice

veron i noe i get mad at you most of the time
but thanks girl for trying to cheer me up when you read my posts

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