revelations!

okies so finally revelations is over!!!!
i am super happy that i am actually in bed by 9!!!
even though i dont sleep yet i am actually at home...
ahahahaha
well i have nothing much to say about it coz all the drama so
i am just freakin glad its over and no way am i part of any of her nonsense again
i am not gonna hate dance because of her
just hate her
seriously!
well here are the pics...



okies so this is the fiercest i could give hahas...
i honestly hate the white parts i mean hello they look like liquid paper!!!!
okies so i was bored and had nothing better to do i attempted to climb the wall.
hahaha yeah i noe funny laugh your heart out.!

uh huh so all of us tried to be fierce okies no comments about mine i felt like my face was gonna crack with all that make up. shalom looks like her eyes are gonna pop out though ahahah

so warriorisq. stupid poses my whole body hurts!!!!

hahas i kinda like the costume. the head piece and panel and sash and the huge black pants

okies this is one great thing about the stupd white make up on my face. it turned out great with this effect from cameroid. hahah

i must say i look kinda fierce.

my eyes are black?

and thats all for now..... hahaha

are you my friend?

my last two posts seemed quite depressing. well i am glad its over,
baby and i are great now...
the rainbow in coming
and the lady bugs have been good.
i love you!!!!

as for dance i have come to peace with myself
and i am not gonna be affected by it
i noe i did alot
but she just doesnt see
so whatever
i cannot be bothered.
i have to accept that its not the same
not the same as mrs V
she was great and that was why i liked dance
because of her,
anyways enough of this

my knee kinda hurts
and i am worred its screwed up bad
i cant bend it for long
but i can walk so it'll probably go off soon...

hmmmm i was just thinking the other day...
friends are easy to come by but those who would reali stick with you
are hard to even be found.
i mean in sac things were super diff
i dont know maybe coz we were reali close and all
but no matter how bitchy they can be they still call or check on you
when they noe something isnt right
but here its so diff
its like all you can do is talk
but when it comes to doing nothing happens.

i mean i noe i am not that fantastic as a friend because i noe
that i will go all out but would they do the same for me
so i hesitate coz well i dont think they would
and when she took me out of that role
i actually proved myself right
they wont go all out
or to even know
no one was shocked or sad for me
i mean that was so horrible coz i was the only one freaking out
thanks shaheeda for atleast going with me to ask her
and confirm
and thanks sunitha for atleast saying bye when i went off without saying anything.

maybe i am just a person who sees the smallest things
but to me what you do and say is what makes you
but the next day i came to school and ok so i looked all down and out
so everyone asked whats wrong
and yes thanks rani i know you care and its reali nice

veron i noe i get mad at you most of the time
but thanks girl for trying to cheer me up when you read my posts

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donutlicious...

Ok so I finally bought donuts after craving them for a while..
And I bought 6..haha I’m not such a piggy ok
My bro ate 2 and I didn’t like 2 and I ate 2
Well nithirai’s internal review was on today
And I didn’t dance well coz I wasn’t ready as I didn’t know the steps and all
So Vicky took my place and I was reali fine with it.
Omg I didn’t know lavanath could be so intimidating..
Maybe its his size but he looks like those kinda jolly good fello’s
But then again he is one scary fella. Anyways this funny thing reali happened,
Haha so funny…
Well the girls were all dancing and there was a part where this group boys
Walking in this direction and I saw them and I predicted what was gonna happen.
Well the girls didn’t see them coz well their backs were facing the boys and I was sitting opposite the girls
So I saw everything and when the girls saw the boys gosh
I couldn’t stop laughing
Everyone’s reaction changed
And they suddenly lost their concentration…
It was soo funny… then the whole thing went pretty ok.. I mean good.
So rani and I left and decided to get our donuts on the way
So we did.
We went to munchy’s
And I got 2 oreos 1 strawberry yoghurt 1 latte 1 choc with peanut butter filling
And 1 plain chocolate.
I didn’t like the latte and peanut butter one…
And then I came home and just sat in bed..

Honey past few days haven’t been entirely great
I mean I got used to certain things you’d do and say
And it feels weird when you suddenly don’t do or say
I guess I see change easily and I think too much
And kinda felt like you goin off like that last night was reali well fast
And mean and selfish and everything else
I guess I’m missing you so much and I just don’t wanna feel far
Well not physically coz how much further can it get
But you know just far…
I love you lots!!!!
And oh yeah I ate your share f donuts on your behalf..
Hehe

yummy yummy yummy!!! you can see i've already taken a bite out of the oreo one hahahaahahah

tiring!

well lets see.. yesterday was a horrible day so i shall go thru the events..
firstly i was supposed to meet karthik and rani fro breakfast at macs
but bloody neh neh pok karthik overslept so i went to macs first and waited
thank god rani also tried to come early.
i bought lime and read and sat there like a gundu
and i started to dream (of baby of course)
i was missng him soo much
and then i realized like half an hour had passed and walked to the mrt station
and saw rani and i still decided to eat at macs
so i bought the bagel thingy which i have been wanting to try for almost a year but never did
so finally i did and i liked it
but my jaw still hurt trying to take a bite...
so we went for dance unhappily coz rani also didnt feel like going
but hello! i travelled so far and in the end not go
i could have stayed home and talked to baby...



went for dance and it sucked coz kavitha didnt put me in for the bollywood thingy at the esplanade. i mean i noe la its my fault i didnt show her how committed i was and wasnt good at catching up fast but i dont get it the rest that she chose arent doing the steps properly only thing is that they just continue and pretend as if they are right
but i like to perfect it and then do i mean then its good right
well there goes my insecurities again coz i know i am quite reserved when it comes to exaggerating a step blah blah blah...
thank god the kalari fella didnt come and we have no more martial arts i think
it was torture!!!!
haha but i remember priya and shalom eyeing mohawk
haha so funny
then i had to leave early coz i had to go to church
it was the childrens day party...


so i had to rush home first to change and then rush to church
and so i went to church and oh my gosh the kids were so noisy and so very ill mannered
goodness they are usually so quiet during class but today they were wild
and i bet they hate me with how much i scolded them
hahahaha


then i wanted to rush home coz i told baby i would be home by 6 to talk to him
and actually rushed and got home much earlier but my mum sent me out again
to but wine for her coz she was going to some dinner party
and after much arguing i had to go
and walked as fast as i could coz my legs hurt
and bought her some reisling thingy
and quickly went home..
and had to tell her which bag to use
and whether she looked ok
or if her hair was ok
oh my gosh headache but i think i might do that to baby...
haha and finally she left and i talked to baby till night hehe

wake up for the tv...

omg for the first after god knows how long
i woke up and went straight to to the tv...
i havent done that for so long...
i'd watch cartoons and survivor and all sorts of nonsense....
but recently i'd wake up and switch on my laptop and watch the oc
but i didnt today probably coz i knew baby wouldnt be online...
hmmm well baby seems to be fine and thats good...
miss you lots!!!
wanted to go for breakfast with shal but nah
i'm still mad at her... hmph
i seem to have alot to say here...
my legs are aching so bad and gosh i still cant believe
how i endured dance yesterday...
i have never perspired so much in an air conditioned room
and yesterday was unbeliveable...
ergh... cant even walk down the stairs...

laughing in pain

Oh my gosh
Dance was torture today…
We did martial arts… hello does my face look like I do martial arts
Anyways I was pushed to my limits today
Firstly I regret drinking the cappuccino because I felt like vomiting during dance
More like torture session well I couldn’t help it
Wanted to eat but my damn jaw hurts
Felt as if I was punched in the face
But I don’t remember getting into a fight though
Hmmm well I’m still suffering coz I used so much thigh muscles today
Which have never been used before and gosh
It aches so bad…just to walk..
The damn sty on my eye hurts like hell too..
Ergh…
Baby is up ok bye…